Never Forget

If you follow me on Twitter, you might have seen this post last week:

And to top it all off, I started back at work yesterday too...  

Sure, I could have taken more time off, but sitting at home wasn’t doing me much good {read: lots of tears & very lonely} and even though it's been hard to get out of bed each morning, I am hoping the distractions at work will help me get through these early days/weeks/months of this new life God has laid out for us.  

While the last month had some of the best moments of our lives, it was also the worst either of us have ever had: we said hello AND goodbye to our precious baby girl, celebrated her {too-short} life with a beautiful memorial service, and now we are trying to get through the days without her, after spending the last nine months preparing to spend it with her.  Who wants to ever experience this?  No one!

Of course there isn’t a day that has gone by that I haven’t thought of her big brown eyes or tiny little toes and longed to hold her in my arms again, but one of my biggest fears is whether these constant memories will continue now that everything is “done” and will she be forgotten, especially if people aren’t hearing her name as much {which makes me cry just thinking about it...}.

Fortunately, many people have shared with me how Charlotte and her story has touched their lives in one way or another.  I am amazed how such a small person, who was only here on Earth for little amount of time, has made such a big impact on people’s lives, even those who never had the chance to meet her.  And thankfully, that gives me enough peace to continue on this new journey at this time.

In no way is this the path either of us ever imagined we’d be walking, but this is our new reality and I just pray we can continue putting one foot in front of another and more importantly never forget our little Charlotte.